maybe i'm a wimp

[talyen]

I skipped my run today. Totally. I spent the time icing my shoulder and trying to catch up on calories (I'm about 200 shy for the day, still, but who's counting).

The pain is pretty bad.

But is it too bad to keep me from running? Or am I just looking for any excuse not to run?

Yesterday's run was good and bad. Good, because it was my first outdoor run since before bronchitis. And it was also around 45 degrees outside. Bad, because I realized that training inside has been too easy, without hills and wind and super-hard pavement. And so I didn't manage to run the entire 4.5 miles.

Every time I run, the pain in my shoulder increases. I run 4 days/week. On the days I don't run, the pain goes down a little bit. Today, it hurts to have an arm attached. But I didn't skip my run because of that. I skipped my run because I was afraid of how much it was going to hurt afterwards, and tomorrow.

And that really felt like wimping out. I feel like I'm letting myself down, rather than helping myself. What the heck is that all about?

Comments

[legocoach.livejournal.com]

I don't think your a wimp. There's a difference between working through the pain and causing yourself more pain. The one builds endurance, the other could potentially aggravate the injury and potentially increase healing time. I know it's frustrating, but give yourself time (and permission!) to heal.

[talyen.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I feel less like a wimp, especially since I've taken three days off now, and it's only today that the pain is down to "occasionally forgettable." I had been running so much, and the pain increased so constantly, that I hadn't realized how much pain I was in.

I am not doing myself favors when I do things that increase the pain. Unfortunately, running and biking, and all the other active things I love (racquetball and tennis come to mind as well) involve my shoulder. Even swimming makes things hurt more right now.

I'll think of something. Thanks for the encouragement. And at least I can read about your rides and spinning!

[legocoach.livejournal.com]

Yeah, well, the actual rides are off while I can't grab the handle bars, Even spinning is abbreviated, for pretty much thee same reason.