Saturday afternoon fever-generated thoughts

[talyen]

I'm sick (again), resting and probably about to take another nap. My roommate is out, returning tomorrow, so I have the place to myself. It is sunny and 20 degrees, but very windy, and I ran today (I skipped while I had a fever on Thursday), but ran all five miles on the indoor track. 40 circles, and yes, I'm a bit dizzy, but that could be the upper respiratory infection.

Yesterday was my roommate's birthday, but she was stuck in TN. Tomorrow is another friends' birthday, and we're going out to the club to celebrate. Hence the multiple naps for me today. Each weekend, I have to choose what to miss, and tonight I am missing a concert that would be fun, and my housemates' concert, too. Bummer.

And I'm still chatting up the trainer at the gym. It would be nice to generate some sort of interest from some corner of the universe, even down here. I think it's been too long since I was on an actual date.

Comments

[netmouse.livejournal.com]

I think it's been too long since I was on an actual date.

I know how you feel. I think it's been at least 7 months for me. That was our anniversary, last summer, right before Bill left to hike the AT. Now Bill's been back for not quite two months and he's talking about moving out soon, so the prospects of our resuming our relationship don't seem good, though I guess the possibility is still there.

In a few months I might start dating again, but who knows. It might be time for me to be alone for a while.


Hope you feel better soon.

dating

[talyen.livejournal.com]

Time alone can be good. Dating time is only good when I know what I want. Right now, I want to have fun, but I don't think I want to find someone to be with forever.

I haven't been on a date in, gosh, I have no idea. There were a couple times when I went out with Lisa, the last time in September, that could have been dates, but they were more like "doing something together." Having only seen her every two weeks at that point, it was a date in that I was getting to see her, but not romantic, and I was frustrated in the progress of our relationship after a year.

I want a date, with the possibility of romance, and I haven't had that in almost a year.

Sounds like you would like a date with Bill, although you don't make it sound likely. Do you want dates with others, or are you only wanting Bill right now?

Re: dating

[netmouse.livejournal.com]

It's an interesting question. Because I do think I would like a date with Bill, but I'm not sure I am wanting Bill, himself, partly because he appears to have no romantic feelings for me (he's seeing someone else these days). I guess I miss a romance that isn't there anymore, so I'm nostalgic.

No one new is in the picture but in a few months I might pick up with an old lover. He's far away and ourlifestyles are incompatible, so we wouldn't ever live together, but it would be good to be loved from time to time.

Re: dating

[talyen.livejournal.com]

I can totally understand being nostalgic for a particular romance. Especially with it so close by, in time and proximity. And romance is nice for its own sake, as well, in whatever form it takes.

I can also understand wanting to feel loved by another person from time to time, by a lover you can count on even when it's not a perfect situation. The "counting on" part can be crucial.