Motivation, or the lack thereof
Sep. 11th, 2005 07:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
talyenI barely got going this weekend. I really, really wanted to visit L this weekend, but that was not to be: she needed some downtime to get stuff done. And I'm glad she made that decision, because really, so did I.
But I couldn't get motivated. I was up late Friday night, and when I first set my sights on yesterday morning, all I wanted was to lay outside in the sun. So I did. Missed the run with the club, got pink, didn't do squat. Finally ran a little, but not so's you'd notice. I barely did three miles: I think two days in a row of biking/running wore me out a bit.
I thought about going dancing last night. That would have been fun! There are $7, drop-in, latin dance lessons on Saturday nights, followed by a dance party for three hours. My friend G and I did that a couple weeks ago, so I asked if she'd like to do it again. She had a previous engagement, and invited me along. I went.
It was a party, with geeks. But only a few geeks I knew - different clique of geeks, I guess. It was hard to get into the party, with so many people I didn't know, and with a different level of socialization. Still, they were nice people and I was glad to be among them.
I was up late again, and when I woke up this morning, I convinced myself that I wouldn't be able to make the club ride (it starts at 8 am, and I woke up at 7:30 am). However, that also sucked for my motivation, because when I got up, I didn't want to go run immediately. I wanted to do stuff around the house, or ride my bike.
I did the stuff around the house. But all day, what I really wanted was to through responsibility to the wind again and to be outside. I tried running, but it wasn't worth it. I walked to the grocery store, which helped a little. I got an emergency kit for my road bike, and that helped a lot.
So I've now cooked, cleaned, eaten, done my bills, and done some work for the con (more to come still tonight). I was terribly productive, but I don't feel like I had a good day. Wish I could have been a lazy bum all day, but apparently, that wasn't all that I wished to do. Huh.
But I couldn't get motivated. I was up late Friday night, and when I first set my sights on yesterday morning, all I wanted was to lay outside in the sun. So I did. Missed the run with the club, got pink, didn't do squat. Finally ran a little, but not so's you'd notice. I barely did three miles: I think two days in a row of biking/running wore me out a bit.
I thought about going dancing last night. That would have been fun! There are $7, drop-in, latin dance lessons on Saturday nights, followed by a dance party for three hours. My friend G and I did that a couple weeks ago, so I asked if she'd like to do it again. She had a previous engagement, and invited me along. I went.
It was a party, with geeks. But only a few geeks I knew - different clique of geeks, I guess. It was hard to get into the party, with so many people I didn't know, and with a different level of socialization. Still, they were nice people and I was glad to be among them.
I was up late again, and when I woke up this morning, I convinced myself that I wouldn't be able to make the club ride (it starts at 8 am, and I woke up at 7:30 am). However, that also sucked for my motivation, because when I got up, I didn't want to go run immediately. I wanted to do stuff around the house, or ride my bike.
I did the stuff around the house. But all day, what I really wanted was to through responsibility to the wind again and to be outside. I tried running, but it wasn't worth it. I walked to the grocery store, which helped a little. I got an emergency kit for my road bike, and that helped a lot.
So I've now cooked, cleaned, eaten, done my bills, and done some work for the con (more to come still tonight). I was terribly productive, but I don't feel like I had a good day. Wish I could have been a lazy bum all day, but apparently, that wasn't all that I wished to do. Huh.
