talyen | 4 weeks

It's been 4 weeks that C and I have been together, and I feel wonderful about this whole thing. I am learning more and more about her, and about myself, every day. I think I finally believe that there will be time for everything we need, each of us individually and together.

The amount that I'm learning about her is matched by what I'm learning about myself. It's amazing to believe that I can really have a healthy relationship with someone, and to do it. I feel like I am practicing making healthy decisions about taking care of myself and of our relationship. It was hard at first to ask for time, and it still is, but I am getting it, and I'm also getting more accomplished with the time I do have.

And talk about learning a lot! We had a 7-day date: we went together to the Michigan Womyn's Music Festival on Monday through Sunday. 3.5 days of cold rain, and I mean cold. I'd get up in the mornings, and it would be 49 or 50 degrees Farenheit, and I'd run for 35 - 40 minutes so I was warm enough to take an outdoor shower. It was great when, later in the week, it was in the mid-50's. And yes, it rained Tuesday - Friday.

It didn't feel like a relationship test, although I've had relationships that should not have survived similar circumstances. It felt like a long, wonderful date. For six mornings, her face was the first thing I saw in the morning, and that alone was worth everything. The rest, meeting for lunches and going to concerts and shopping together, learning to relax with each other, and the tons of drumming, were icing on the cake of morning joy.

Yes, I am crazy about her. She is beautiful, inside and out, and makes me feel strongly myself. And loved.