slowing down
Dec. 8th, 2007 07:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
talyenI'll probably be down below 55 hours this week at work, the first time since ... I have no idea. October, probably.
I started catching up on things. Not just the laundry and the cleaning, which is how I've been spending my weekends. I turned on NPR and got a taste of media (my short Flist is my only clue to the outside world, and has been for months). I listened for 30 minutes, that was pretty overwhelming.
I shopped for something other than instant food and pet supplies: windshield wipers, batteries, fall and winter clothes at the GoodWill. The little things that keep the house going (and the clocks).
I had the car washed and detailed the inside so that it looks good for pictures and selling. There're people at work interested, and I want to make sure it's really ready. I get the new car this week.
I'm avoiding rehearsing Messiah. It's long. It's beautiful, but damn, I'm tired, and frankly, singing about happiness regarding a world saviour just doesn't fit into my world view. Not at present, not for the foreseeable future. I've got some soul-pain that's not healing yet, and it makes singing the beautiful music ... soulless, I guess.
My bike is on the trainer again, and maybe soon I'll see what it feels like to ride it. I feel very fat, so I gotta start something, and running is still outta the question. I'll be brace-on-the-ankle girl for more months, still.
On the thinking and looking forward front, I had a civil conversation with my parents today. I'm marking it down. I cut them some slack, and continue to treat them as people I need to be pleasant to, and I keep in mind that I can get away when I need to, and things are sometimes okay. They actually asked what I'd like for Christmas. This is the first time ever in my life they've asked my opinion. That's nice. Yes, as a child I told them (and they ignored me for whatever reasons), and as an adult I didn't even get presents from them. So imagine how cool it is to be asked what I want, having expected to get nothing.
Just imagine what it's like to get a gift.
I started catching up on things. Not just the laundry and the cleaning, which is how I've been spending my weekends. I turned on NPR and got a taste of media (my short Flist is my only clue to the outside world, and has been for months). I listened for 30 minutes, that was pretty overwhelming.
I shopped for something other than instant food and pet supplies: windshield wipers, batteries, fall and winter clothes at the GoodWill. The little things that keep the house going (and the clocks).
I had the car washed and detailed the inside so that it looks good for pictures and selling. There're people at work interested, and I want to make sure it's really ready. I get the new car this week.
I'm avoiding rehearsing Messiah. It's long. It's beautiful, but damn, I'm tired, and frankly, singing about happiness regarding a world saviour just doesn't fit into my world view. Not at present, not for the foreseeable future. I've got some soul-pain that's not healing yet, and it makes singing the beautiful music ... soulless, I guess.
My bike is on the trainer again, and maybe soon I'll see what it feels like to ride it. I feel very fat, so I gotta start something, and running is still outta the question. I'll be brace-on-the-ankle girl for more months, still.
On the thinking and looking forward front, I had a civil conversation with my parents today. I'm marking it down. I cut them some slack, and continue to treat them as people I need to be pleasant to, and I keep in mind that I can get away when I need to, and things are sometimes okay. They actually asked what I'd like for Christmas. This is the first time ever in my life they've asked my opinion. That's nice. Yes, as a child I told them (and they ignored me for whatever reasons), and as an adult I didn't even get presents from them. So imagine how cool it is to be asked what I want, having expected to get nothing.
Just imagine what it's like to get a gift.
