Selling Out

I am very conflicted about selling my car. I originally came up with the idea so that I could get out of debt more quickly: no car payment = more money for other debt. And what with trying to get pregnant, getting out of debt when the baby is small seems like a very good idea. And selling the car seemed my only alternative, other than finding a higher-paying job in our poor economy.

But I do love this car. It fits my current needs, and I spent over a month in researching cars before buying this one. I selfishly would like to keep it, and put off being responsible into the future. Sometimes it doesn't seem worth it to buy a "good" used car. I'm guessing it wouldn't cost me as much for the next few years as my current car, but it also wouldn't necessarily have the space, features, and good mechanicals, either.

Couple that with my misgivings about being a single parent that never seem to go away - in fact, they cause me to keep wanting to put off my next start date - and selling it seems overkill. I can live with being in debt for the next few years, and keep the car, and I don't see anything crazy happening financially as long as I don't have a child.

Which I've wanted since I was 15. But hey, I must have had some reason for putting it off for 24 years... I have no idea how I'm going to figure these things out.

Meanwhile, I'm taking on side-jobs, which have paid for my new drum, and tonight's will pay for a small portion of my recent vacation. If I can keep them up, it may solve the short-term problem, I guess.